There are no dishes in my sink. That and other stuff pointing me in the right direction.

1/7/2011 3:22 PM


Happy New Year everybody.

I’m gonna share something that I went over with my therapist. It’s just a list of things that I did last year that were a calculated step towards building the life that I know I deserve:

1. I started this blog. Though I’ve been keeping journals for years now I wanted to share this journey. Sometimes it seems that I’m the only one going through what I’m going through, but I know that everyone out there has their moments of self doubt and moments of stagnation. I just wanted people to know that even the “baby steps” can be hard to take.

2. I enrolled in school again, taking classes towards a MA in counseling. I got an A- in both my classes! How’s that for a step in the right direction.

3. I’m currently in counseling myself; having noticed that I wasn’t making progress on my own, I took advantage of the free counseling provided for me by my college.

4. I started my road to really dealing with my ADD by going to Christ Hospital and getting an appointment to see a psychiatrist so I can get medication that will help me with my concentration and other symptoms that have made life for me less than perfect.

5. I’ve found a spiritual outlet. I have started practicing Buddhism. The practice helps me focus on the positive in my life and helps me see all the opportunities life has to offer as well as all the blessings I’ve already been given.

6. Most of all, last year, I’ve given myself a little forgiveness. (Truth is that this step came in the beginning of this year.) I’ve given myself permission to live life at my own pace instead of measuring myself against the outside world.

With theses steps that I’ve taken over the past year, I truly and sincerely feel a peace that comes from not fearing the future. I can start designing my life as apposed to just getting tossed about like the SS Minnow in Gilligan’s Island.





I guess…. In a word, I found “Hope.”